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AkshayGoodOne
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Hi
I'm a student, essentially focused and single....I have good chums, great people around, best parents in the world and no dearth of awesome people to connect and talk to.....But sometimes, I am all alone and exhausted, and my mind switches automatically to this desperate side.
Masturbation is boring. You just can't do anything productive after that. Almost nothing in porn convinces me to pull my pants off immediately...If ever I do, its only because I have to have a stimulus to help me make myself happy. People around me are shy to open up to me, cause I don't cause that 'doable, open and fun guy' impression around. That cooperative, upright and supportive side always slides out... So sex's not available at all.
I usually run out of ideas when I get horny...Porn is the most available option..but it leaves me hollow when I'm done letting the juices out. I tried sexting a few times. Its really creative and a literary activity, but I've grown beyond that as well. The critic in me wakes up when analyzing verbal descriptions, and spoils the fun whatsoever. Never tried phone sex or cam sex, for if I ask for that, I fear I'd be termed a creep still.
The thing is....This aloneness, longing for belongingness often creeps in, and leaves me with no great ideas about how to deal with it.
I'm beginning to look at sex as a way to seek pleasure in other's pleasure caused by you. That understanding and acceptance is hard to find in others.
I don't necessarily wanna jack off when horny. I need ways to deal with it when especially I don't wanna disturb or harm anyone, or fall deeper into the pit of frustration when deemed not worthy of attention. I tried sketching my fantasies out, talk to someone about it in a sugar-coated language, making the message seem and often mean otherwise. TL;DR, I hate Purposelessly Jacking off. Either that has to make someone happy or give us babies.
What do you think I should do? Or if you don't have any advice, that's absolutely fine...My life is otherwise perfect and this thing not hurting me in my real life. Maybe its about time. About being patient. About just coping up with it.
Thank You
I'm a student, essentially focused and single....I have good chums, great people around, best parents in the world and no dearth of awesome people to connect and talk to.....But sometimes, I am all alone and exhausted, and my mind switches automatically to this desperate side.
Masturbation is boring. You just can't do anything productive after that. Almost nothing in porn convinces me to pull my pants off immediately...If ever I do, its only because I have to have a stimulus to help me make myself happy. People around me are shy to open up to me, cause I don't cause that 'doable, open and fun guy' impression around. That cooperative, upright and supportive side always slides out... So sex's not available at all.
I usually run out of ideas when I get horny...Porn is the most available option..but it leaves me hollow when I'm done letting the juices out. I tried sexting a few times. Its really creative and a literary activity, but I've grown beyond that as well. The critic in me wakes up when analyzing verbal descriptions, and spoils the fun whatsoever. Never tried phone sex or cam sex, for if I ask for that, I fear I'd be termed a creep still.
The thing is....This aloneness, longing for belongingness often creeps in, and leaves me with no great ideas about how to deal with it.
I'm beginning to look at sex as a way to seek pleasure in other's pleasure caused by you. That understanding and acceptance is hard to find in others.
I don't necessarily wanna jack off when horny. I need ways to deal with it when especially I don't wanna disturb or harm anyone, or fall deeper into the pit of frustration when deemed not worthy of attention. I tried sketching my fantasies out, talk to someone about it in a sugar-coated language, making the message seem and often mean otherwise. TL;DR, I hate Purposelessly Jacking off. Either that has to make someone happy or give us babies.
What do you think I should do? Or if you don't have any advice, that's absolutely fine...My life is otherwise perfect and this thing not hurting me in my real life. Maybe its about time. About being patient. About just coping up with it.
Thank You
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