I confess, I am not a strong person... I have changed the very core of who I am to please people and seek their love. That being said..I forgive myself!. I thank my family/friends both online and in the real world for helping me take a hard look at what I was letting happen. I will no longer let myself feel less than or worthless. Yes, that's how I felt each time I took the brunt of misdirected anger in the privacy of pm so nobody else in the room could see. I will not cry another tear because of careless words thrown out in anger. I am not a second choice. I am a beautiful, intelligent, loving woman. I will NOT beg anyone to choose me. I know my worth, do you? I love and forgive with everything I have, holding back nothing. It's who I am. I will continue to love, but the cycle stops today. Respect, courtesy, honesty, forgiveness, openess, and caring are all i will accept from here on out from anyone who chooses to be a part of my life. Huggles.