It isn't getting any better if you believe in anything God/ higher power/ spiritual etc
Pray/ or wish me luck i really need it
It has been extremely difficult to eat or get out of bed I have finally showered this morning it's been a whole week
I need somebody to talk to and vent and help me focus and not waste the day just want somebody to check with me if im doing what im supposed to and help me stay calm through all im going through there's deadlines and no room for failure and I need help
Shitty piece of this day
It is so hard to feel
Am I alive am I real
Chasing the danger chasing pain chasing fear
Call me reckless call me crazy
I'm a corpse I'm alive through death through darkness I feel dizzy
...
Relapsed into silence again
the silence from within
relapsed into the fear
of not having you near
fear of the unknown
of facing it on my own
take away the pain
let it rain .. let it rain