And I think I'm to blame for it. I'm 22F and madly in love with him. I enjoy our sex life a lot but I feel he's too innocent for me (and one would assume I am the innocent one as I am 5'3, wide eyed, and a bit younger than him). I went through a heavy acid phase from 19-20, I cleaned myself up to just weed a little before we met and have been happier. But I was pretty depraved back then, not many girls my age owned a thick 8-inch dildo and a vibrator. I also lost a lot of weight during this time and got into the gym and self care (aka became conventionally "hot"), so I definitely used tinder to my advantage during this time too. I like being demeaned, treated roughly, and I like toys... Things we never use but I am too immature to broach the subject of.
I can't bring these things up with him. I fear he'll see me as dirty, which I kind of was? But only for a short period of my life tbh. I enjoy our sex but I still find myself wanting more.
I can't bring these things up with him. I fear he'll see me as dirty, which I kind of was? But only for a short period of my life tbh. I enjoy our sex but I still find myself wanting more.