No. It helps with my cravings. When I crave I need to divert my focus. Coffee, cigar and hanging around here help me tremendously. I entertain myself, get past the craving, and proceed to live my life. My brain is always in overdrive tho... That’s how I was able to write almost four thousand words in two hours. I zone out. Like when I cook. The world vanishes and I’m at peace with everything, including my past. Caffeine helps curb my need, desire, craving to alter my mind frame. It’s a slight buzz kinda deal... Without my coffee and my cigars I would’ve hurt someone again. Oh that and random fucks whenever I get the inclination to blow a load. Like now maybe. A good, hard, meaningless, intense but not to be repeated again fuck. That might help me get a bit focused I recon. Ima call the fwb girly and have her stay the night. Hopefully she brings the schoolgirl uniform again... GEEEZUS YESH!!!
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Finishing my cigar. Then I shall proceed to call my fwb and hopefully have some meaningless but releasing and relaxing sex. If not I’m going to book a prossie. Fuckit!!! Too much effort to be all nice and shit... Meh!!!
