What I’m listening to...


I tried breathing underwater to drown out the doubt
I cracked under the pressure and nearly bled out (nearly bled out)
You said you'd always save me, so where are you now?
Feels like I'm failing, I'm dancing while drowning alone

I'm dancing while drowning alone
Feels like I'm failing, I'm dancing while drowning alone
 


I've been lost, alone in a crowd
Can't remember when the silence got so loud
We believe, but what do we know?
All the things we bottle up will one day start to overflow


Where do I shelter when it's raining inside?
No peace and quiet from the noise in my mind
I don't bend, I break, I can't go on this way
It kills to hear you say
"I can't stand to see you like this"
 

Honey, load up your questions
And pick up your sticks and your stones
And pretend I'm a shelter
For heartaches that don't have a home

Choose the words that cut like a razor
All that I'll say is

Fire away

Take your best shot
Show me what you got
Honey, I'm not afraid

Rear back and take aim
And fire away

Well, I wish I could say
That I've never been here before

But you know and I know
That I'll always come back for more
Your love might be my damnation
But I'll cry to my grave
 

Faking a smile, but my life's been hell
Been strong for everybody but myself
These past due bills ain't gonna pay themselves
Somebody, kill me

Got my PhD as a pessimist
I'ma drink all night 'til I can't feel this
This bottle's cheaper than a therapist
Somebody, kill me

Every day I die a little bit more
Pull the plug on my life support
'Cause nothing's going right
In my dead-end life, my dead-end life
 

Wake up to a cloudy day
Dark rolls in and it starts to rain
Staring out to the cage-like walls
Time goes by and the shadows crawl
Crushin' Candy Crush-ing pills
Got no job, mom pays my bills
Textin', Nexus, get my feels
Sweatin' bullets, Netflix-chills
World's out there singin' the blues
Twenty more dead on the evening news
Think to myself: "really, what's the use?"
I'm just like you, I was born to lose

Why oh why can't you just fix me?
When all I want's to feel numb
But the medication's all gone
Why oh why does God hate me?
When all I want's to get high
And forget this so-called life

I am so frickin' bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I'll sit around and medicate (I medicate)
I am so frickin' bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I'll sit around and medicate (I medicate)
 
DarkBlonde said:

Wake up to a cloudy day
Dark rolls in and it starts to rain
Staring out to the cage-like walls
Time goes by and the shadows crawl
Crushin' Candy Crush-ing pills
Got no job, mom pays my bills
Textin', Nexus, get my feels
Sweatin' bullets, Netflix-chills
World's out there singin' the blues
Twenty more dead on the evening news
Think to myself: "really, what's the use?"
I'm just like you, I was born to lose

Why oh why can't you just fix me?
When all I want's to feel numb
But the medication's all gone
Why oh why does God hate me?
When all I want's to get high
And forget this so-called life

I am so frickin' bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I'll sit around and medicate (I medicate)
I am so frickin' bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I'll sit around and medicate (I medicate)
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Jesus. It hits really hard for me. Hell, it is me!
 

One step ahead but I'm still behind
Where I thought I'd be by this time
It's hard to please, much less believe the screaming voice in my head
In my head

I'm in a freefall
Racing to the ground
I'm scared I'll lose it all
Is anybody out there
Or am I alone?
Reaching out for someone in a freefall

I've got a million reasons to hold on
But I need one to let it go
I smile like I'm okay
But I got pain that no one knows
No one knows

I think that
I'm thinking too much
So I drink till
I'm drinking too much
It's all spinning faster and faster

I'm in a freefall
Racing to the ground
I'm scared I'll lose it all
Is anybody out there
Or am I alone?
Reaching out for someone in a freefall
 
DreamEater said:

One step ahead but I'm still behind
Where I thought I'd be by this time
It's hard to please, much less believe the screaming voice in my head
In my head

I'm in a freefall
Racing to the ground
I'm scared I'll lose it all
Is anybody out there
Or am I alone?
Reaching out for someone in a freefall

I've got a million reasons to hold on
But I need one to let it go
I smile like I'm okay
But I got pain that no one knows
No one knows

I think that
I'm thinking too much
So I drink till
I'm drinking too much
It's all spinning faster and faster

I'm in a freefall
Racing to the ground
I'm scared I'll lose it all
Is anybody out there
Or am I alone?
Reaching out for someone in a freefall
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Damn!
 
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